Public Harassment: I just turned 14…

So I just turned 14 about a month ago and I look even younger than that (I have a baby face and I’m short). I was walking on the street with my two cousins, walking my dog and taking my 13 year old cousins baby sister on a ride on her stroller. There were no adults around. We were in a public park and there were a bunch of teenage boys. Being a previous victim of street harassment from teenage boys, I was really scared and started feeling self-conscious of what I was wearing (it was a skirt and a shirt that exposed my shoulders and a bit of my stomach).

When we were about to go home, we passed them again and some of them kept looking at us. That made me feel so scared it triggered previous memories of street harassment and I almost felt like crying. I thought “thank god” when we were about to cross the street and leave the park, but then three cars passed in front of us.

One guy in a pick-up-truck did that whistle thing at us and I could’ve burst into tears on the spot. He was driving, which had to mean he’s over 18 (in the country I live in, you have to be over 18 to drive). I obviously looked very young, but I was the most exposed out of all three of us, which made me feel like it was directed at me especially, and I felt dirty just having an older guy do this to me. I went home and locked myself in my room afterward, crying and just feeling absolutely horrible.

I talked to my best friend about it and he comforted me the best he possibly could, recommended me a few sites to see how other people deal with sexual harassment and, in the midst of my reading, someone put a link to this site and I really needed to get this off my chest, so here I am.